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Jun. 6th, 2012 10:06 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jentianIf I ever win the lottery, I would get the surgeries I need to make my life better. Then I would start a foundation for people like me who don't have enough money to buy insurance but who aren't poor enough to be helped by the government. The surgeries I need aren't even complicated. Both procedures can be done laparascopically, yet I can't pay for them, so I get to be in pain every single day. If I ever won the lottery, that's what I would do. I'd help people like me, people who need simple operations that would improve their lives drastically, but can't afford insurance.
I don't get this; I don't think I'll ever get it. Doctors are supposed to do no harm. Yet, I am being harmed every day simply because they let insurance companies dictate to them who can be helped.
Every day it gets harder to live. I don't know if it will ever get better. For more than three years, I've been looking for that light at the end of the long, dark tunnel, and it's just not there. People keep telling me to hold on, that it will get better, but after three years of despair, extreme depression, stress, anxiety, and constant worrying, I'm not sure how much longer I can do this.
I don't get this; I don't think I'll ever get it. Doctors are supposed to do no harm. Yet, I am being harmed every day simply because they let insurance companies dictate to them who can be helped.
Every day it gets harder to live. I don't know if it will ever get better. For more than three years, I've been looking for that light at the end of the long, dark tunnel, and it's just not there. People keep telling me to hold on, that it will get better, but after three years of despair, extreme depression, stress, anxiety, and constant worrying, I'm not sure how much longer I can do this.