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Mar. 24th, 2012 10:31 pmSometimes I really miss my twenties. I really enjoyed them. And, today, when my life has become such a struggle, I wonder where the joy I felt then has gone.
I was then involved in a Youth Ministry leadership group. Although we really didn't minister to others except for a few times a year, we did minister to each other. We all understood that we all shared a deep love for being Catholic and Jesus. We had a lot of fun together, keeping each other company, going on trips together, and occasionally volunteering for causes.
Eventually, we all went our separate ways, as people do. But there are times I miss them all. I miss those friendships a great deal.
I also miss the easy conversations I had with God. I could talk to Him all the time. Now, I find that so much harder to do. I haven't been to Mass in a long time. It's not that I stopped believing, but that I've become so disappointed in the Church's treatment of others. For an organization that is supposed to be representative of Christ's love, it is severely lacking in showing in His love and tolerance of others. I particularly dislike that women aren't allowed to serve as priests just because of their gender. I also don't agree with their stance on homosexuality. Love is too precious a gift--it shouldn't matter who we love.
I know I'm letting my anger and disappointment with the Church get in the way of my spirituality, but I'm not certain what do about it. I know in my deepest heart that God wants me to be Catholic, and I miss not receiving Communion, but how I can be true to a Church that I don't like anymore?
I was then involved in a Youth Ministry leadership group. Although we really didn't minister to others except for a few times a year, we did minister to each other. We all understood that we all shared a deep love for being Catholic and Jesus. We had a lot of fun together, keeping each other company, going on trips together, and occasionally volunteering for causes.
Eventually, we all went our separate ways, as people do. But there are times I miss them all. I miss those friendships a great deal.
I also miss the easy conversations I had with God. I could talk to Him all the time. Now, I find that so much harder to do. I haven't been to Mass in a long time. It's not that I stopped believing, but that I've become so disappointed in the Church's treatment of others. For an organization that is supposed to be representative of Christ's love, it is severely lacking in showing in His love and tolerance of others. I particularly dislike that women aren't allowed to serve as priests just because of their gender. I also don't agree with their stance on homosexuality. Love is too precious a gift--it shouldn't matter who we love.
I know I'm letting my anger and disappointment with the Church get in the way of my spirituality, but I'm not certain what do about it. I know in my deepest heart that God wants me to be Catholic, and I miss not receiving Communion, but how I can be true to a Church that I don't like anymore?